Where Does My Heart Beat Now???

IMG_4526Remember the song “Where Doos My Heart Beat Now” by Celine Dion? Oh man how I still love this song to this day. It’s kind of funny to me now, how when that song came out, I thought I knew heartbreak. It all feels so real in our teen years doesn’t it? I’ve learned in the last two years however, that all I had felt up until now, was child’s play. And I’m 41. But this song that was my heartbreak anthem back in the day, came to me this morning. I began to really ask myself the question, “Where do all the lonely hearts go?” And as I started thinking of the lyrics of the song, I began placing them with my relationship with God and Bible verses. Could God be the answer to this big question? Well He is a big God.
First lyric I looked at “Where do silent hearts go? Psalm 34:18 “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” I am learning on this road of healing of mine, that nothing and no one can heal a broken silent heart like God. I have had to come to Him with what looked like a 1,000 piece puzzle that was my shattered heart. I just knew that it could never be fully restored, put back together. But God is showing me through love (His love) just how wrong I am again. It has taken countless hours of talking to Him and people He has placed in my life to talk to. It has taken many Bible verses and worship songs. It has taken time. It’s still is taking time. My heart is still very much in the mending process. But God is showing me just how amazing He is, and how He can restore my broken heart. The ache inside is so much duller than it use to be. So take your broken heart to God. To Him it’s not silent. He knows what it is saying without you even having to say a word.
Second lyric(s), “I’m searching for the hand that I can hold. I’m reaching for the arms that let me know, Where do silent hearts go?” Psalm 136:12 “With a mighty hand and outstretched arm; His love endures forever.” God is just waiting there for your hand, for my hand, so that He can hold it. He is waiting with arms open to hold us, to show us just how loved we are. One thing a friend of mine told me to do at the beginning of my heartbreak was to imagine myself laying on Gods lap, His arms holding me. This was an exercise that I admit was hard for me at first. But the more time I spent in Gods word and spoke with Him, the easier it became. I know it’s not the same as a persons arms around you, but it does help to soothe in those tearful moments. Also Isaiah 41:10 “So  do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous righthand.” What better hand to hold than the one that can strengthen us, help us mend properly, the hand that can hold us up when we feel like we are falling? So go to God, accept his extended hand that is just waiting to pull you out of your sadness and despair. It has helped me get as far as I have today. Accept His arms that are just waiting to hold you and love you forever, never letting go.
And lastly “Give me wings to fly”
Isaiah 40:31″But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” I think we can all agree that a broken heart is exhausting. At least I know it is for me. So much energy goes into just not breaking down. In letting go of who I loved. How about you? Is a broken heart taking all your energy today? Well Isaiah 40:31 gives us both hope. God will give us wings to fly. When we are weary and tired, our hope is found in Him. When we go to God with our pain He is able and willing to equip us so it doesn’t leave us stranded. We just have to trust Him with it. Again going to His word everyday and talking with Him are the two absolute best ways to do this. He can’t help us if we don’t know Him. Not know just who He is, but also what He is. He is loving, filled with grace, filled with mercy, filled with hope, strong, and all capable. He is not just a gavel waiting to judge us. He is a Father waiting to heal us. Waiting to restore. Waiting to love. Waiting to give us wings to fly higher than our heavy heart allows us to believe is possible. Go to God, allow Him to help you fly.
It’s so easy sometimes to place another human in the place of the one who is gone. But that’s not healing out heart. That’s just replacing. And in time God will probably replace what is missing. How wonderful it would be to be completely healed first by God. That way we can fully enjoy His blessing of a new heart to love. For our hearts to be strong enough to do so properly. I am healing right along with you, waiting too for the day God decides to replace what’s gone. Until then I rely on His love and strength.


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