Living Life Fully In Our Wait…

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How not to live your life on hold while waiting. This is something I’ve wanted to write about for a while now but felt stuck. I’m still not so sure I’m unstuck, but I’m going for it anyway. It’s my hope and prayer that these rambling words of mine make sense through the grace of God and bless someone who is waiting too. That you know God’s blessings are everywhere, even in the waiting room.
I am a woman in waiting. Waiting on a few desires to be fulfilled. After coming close to being finally married at 40, just to have it fall apart through a very tough time in my life, I’m back to waiting. Only with more uncertainty than ever before. In that marriage I would finally become a mom (step mom counts in my book ❤️) only now I’m back to waiting for that too. After the illness that I suffered, the mental breakdown in the process I suffered, losing my two greatest desires in the middle of all of that, I now have a new desire. To reach others of all ages for God. To help them see through my story of comeback and restoration, it’s possible for them too. I want to grow a full time ministry, become an author, (I just sent in my first children’s book to a publisher for consideration), and more. So I wait for new desires on top of old desires to be fulfilled. Wondering which ones are in Gods will and plan for my life.
Maybe you are waiting too. Maybe for same desires as me, maybe different ones. Doesn’t matter what you are waiting on, you still don’t want to put your life on hold while waiting. So what can we do? How are we called to handle this as Christ followers? Does the Bible even cover this topic? Well I went and looked and here is what I found.
Side note here: I want to say first that finding things you are passionate about, other than what you are waiting on is key here. That’s how my writing started. As a way to not live my life on hold as I waited to find a husband or become a mom. It’s a place for my energy and effort to go. It has truly been a blessing to watch this grow and mature in me. Also I took on reading more and taking writing webinar courses. What are you passionate about other than that greatest desire(s) of yours. Go after that! Pour yourself into that! Just make sure it’s honoring God in the process. Okay so back to what God’s word has to say about waiting and trusting in Him.
First let’s discuss one of my biggest problems in this process. Seeing others get their desires before me. I’m currently reading a book titled “Why Her” it’s all about the comparison trap we can all fall in at times. Psalm 37:7 tells us, “Rest in the LORD and wait patiently for Him; Do not fret because of him who prospers in his way, Because of the man who carries out wicked schemes.” I chose this particular verse because I have the toughest time figuring out why those who don’t honor God get their dreams. I’m not proud of these thoughts but they come up. Maybe they do for you too. However, God clearly states not to let this bother us. We are told to rest in God. So when I find myself worrying about this that’s exactly what I do. I rest in Him and then go about living the life He has already blessed me with. That’s another key thing to not living your life on hold while waiting. Fully living the life we already have! We can miss so many blessings simply by only focusing on what we feel is missing. Live the life you have already been given by God to your fullest potential!
Secondly take this time to grow closer to God. To talk with Him more. Grow your prayer life! Psalm 5:3, “In the morning, O LORD, You will hear my voice; In the morning I will order my prayer to You and eagerly watch.” First thing I do after getting ready for work is pray. I say good morning to God and thank Him for the new day and the breath in my lungs. Then I go on with my prayer, whatever it is that day. I pray over my heart as I wait. I tell God I know he knows the desires of my heart. I pray for strength and patience as I wait. But also for eyes and a heart to see my already good life. I have found one way to not live my life on hold is to count my blessings as I live my life daily. List them out. Write them down if you have to. Being fully aware of how much God has already given us makes it much easier to live free while we wait. To trust God for what’s to come knowing full well all that He has already done. Also pray through the day. I do and it has truly blessed me. Just little convos between you and God as your day goes on. Ask how you can be a blessing through Him to others too.
Third thing I feel that is very important here is seeking God. For years I expected God to bless my life without ever fully seeking Him. Yes I went to church, but that only told me a part of who He was. Yes I prayed but it was either only before meals or bed. Or if I was truly in trouble. Yes I volunteered at church. That only kept me busy for God not growing me in Him. I was never really seeking Him with my whole heart. I was doing for Him, but never being with Him. How can we know God’s goodness and plans for our life if we never seek Him? How can we be certain of our path if we never fully know and trust the One directing it? Proverbs 3:5-6, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.” A great way not to live our life on hold while waiting is to grow in our relationship with God! To learn how to fully trust Him. But we can’t do that if we don’t know Him. Every morning I read Gods words. Just 10 minutes each morning. With prayer and reading it’s 15 minutes a day. You can do this any time in the day that works for you. Nothing helps us move on with life like a new relationship, or renewing one! Why not do this with God? This relationship has a lot of benefits! One is to which knowing how to move forward in your life! Doing this has greatly blessed my life! Falling in love with God has helped me not put my life on hold while waiting. I know He can do the same for you.
Here’s the thing though. I know, there’s always a catch. You and I have to do these things to reap the benefits. We can’t just want to. You can’t just read this and say, “Oh yeah that sounds really good” and then go on about your life as usual. I can’t write these words, thank God for them, and then go back to my life as usual. As it use to be. If we do that these just become words on a screen. Wasted time on your end for reading them and mine for writing them. But I don’t believe I’ve wasted my time. If only one person reading this makes a change than God has used me big time! God is using me in my wait. How about you? Are you willing to take these words and put them into practice? Maybe you are in some ways already, and in other ways you know deep down you are not. I know it’s takes time to fully get to trusting God in the wait. I still have many days where I have to surrender my fears and doubts. You are not alone in that.
I named my ministry “Living Your Best Life” because that’s what I’m aiming to do. I don’t know if my best life will include a husband, children, a full time ministry, books I’ve written, or not. In fact many things about my life are still up in the air at 42. But I’m learning on this journey of mine with God, that part of living my best life is living the life He gives me to the fullest. In a constant state of thankfulness and awareness of all that surrounds me. Day by day surrendering my life to Him. It’s my hope and prayer that you do the same. It’s never wasted time spent learning, growing, and loving, in the presence of God.
And don’t forget my side note. Find something you are passionate about outside of your desire. Something you can give your attention to. Something to fulfill you in the waiting room! 💕

2 thoughts on “Living Life Fully In Our Wait…

  1. I loved reading this. While my waiting is not the same as yours, it is often hard and seemingly never ending. And fraught with personal failure. Or so I see it. I try to remember that God doesn’t see it that way!! Thank you for your blog!

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